Floating...

I had the strangest thought as I awoke this morning, in the black hours before dawn, about 5am. I couldn't get back to sleep, but I had this strange dreamlike idea in the darkness that Becky was (or would be) floating up into the air, away from me, in a "rapture" I think, the calling of the saved to heaven. Which is weird because Becky doesn't believe that any more than I do! But here's the thing: I was stuck to the ground (well I wasn't floating off) and Joni was in my arms. You know what I did? I threw Joni into the air towards Becky, who caught her. But this sort of arrested her transit: she hung there like a ball thrown into the air will hang motionless at the split second gravity is about equal to its upward velocity, and (this is the unanswered question), whether it was because she had Joni in her arms, or because she was looking at me longingly (she had previously been looking heavenwards), having had to look at me when I was throwing Joni...she floated gently back down to me, and we embraced as a family.

Wow. Well, I keep thinking of that bit in "Charlie and the Chocolate factory" when Charlie and his Grandad are floating up, up, up because they chewed that experimental sweet...but Becky didn't burp to get back down again! I think there's quite a lot of meaning in this silly dream, we were just talking the night before about how we were divided as a family around religious issues, which is very true although Becky see's it to be a bigger division than it actually is (if I am seeing the division through eyes of reason rather than eyes of Faith, so be it). She remains part of the fundamental Christian group in which I was also raised, but have recently (post-wedding day) ceased believing in. Not that I have ceased BELIEVING, you understand, as I'm sure I've pointed out: my faith in an organization of men has collapsed but my Faith in God has not. Becky floating gently back down to Earth (let it be so) was a choice of a Man over God, it was the choice of Eve (and of Adam, who chose Woman over God). This is the greatest sin, and yet it is the easiest to understand, why is this the case? Well, God did not give himself as a companion to Man, he gave Woman, and vice-versa. That is why it is NATURAL to choose the seen over the unseen, the man over the maker.